xo, alix

alix lynx, unhinged

I’m in My Chill Era

 

Wow has it been a HOT minute since I’ve written anything on here. Hey, hi, hello!

Wanna know what’s funny?I love writing. A LOT. And I’ve just now realized that I haven’t given myself this outlet in a while now because I’ve been so overly consumed with pumping out content on all other platforms where I know it will be consumed the most – AKA social media, AKA video format. I think I’ll forever be trying to find that happy medium between carving out time for myself to write just because and constantly staying in front of the eyes and ears of the masses in a world that’s full of infinite distractions.

Anyways…

I’ve spent the last couple of days pretty immobile with a gnarly stomach bug, and this is the first day I feel semi-human. During this being unable to physically do anything time, I did a bit of reflecting. Reflecting on who I was, who I am now and how drastically different those two people are. Especially with my new Youtube series, “Behind the Small Screen,” rolling out and having to revisit the past, it’s wild to me how much I’ve evolved and grown over the years, all for the better.

What I’ve learned in my 33 years here on earth is that life is a series of seasons. Like, when I lived in LA as a full time small screen actress from 2014-2020 (and for the billionth time, I am not retired, I just exclusively produce my own scenes now), that period of time was a long ass season of figuring out who I was, what I stood for, what I wanted out of life, and building my business.

I also experienced more of life during that time than I think most people do in their lifetimes, which is why I’m no longer surprised when people call me an “old soul.” I’m a forever student of life, but the wisdom that comes from being in the thick of all the ups and downs…highest of highs and lowest of lows… that life throws your way is a real thing.

Since moving out of LA in 2020 (it’s crazy because when it was time to move there, I just knew, and when it was time to leave there, I just knew) I’ve only continued to become happier and more content with myself and my path.

I’ve realized that it’s because I’ve only continued to learn how to trust myself and my intuition, even if it makes precisely zero sense to anyone else.

It’s because I’ve learned to have full faith and trust in the fact that my path is unfolding for me exactly as it’s meant to, even if it may not seem like it in the moment.

I look back on goals I wanted to reach years ago that I’m just now reaching, and realize that there’s no way in hell I could have handled them in the moments when I thought I wanted them.

I look on relationships that I have now that I wanted forever, and realize that the reason I have them now is because I’m able to fully handle them now with the wisdom and emotional maturity I’ve gained.

I look back on milestones that years ago I wanted to reach so badly, and realize that I didn’t reach them because that rejection was the universe’s way of protecting me from situations that I was never, ever truly meant for, and I am beyond grateful to have avoided getting what I thought I wanted in those moments.

All of this is simply because I’ve learned to love myself fully – not just the upsides, the good stuff, the happy moments, but the parts of me that I’m still working on. The imperfections. The dark places that we all have that I used to deny even existed.

And in this journey, I’ve learned to honor who I really am, and be that person. To follow my joy, and what truly lights me up. To take care of myself. To show up for myself daily, and be the best version of me that I can possibly be. Nowadays, what excites me the most is no longer a huge house party (although I am happy to come out of the woodworks once a year or so for such an excursion). It’s no longer having a VIP table at an exclusive club. It’s no longer traveling somewhere new every single weekend with the intention of escaping a life that I felt just “meh” about. It’s no longer spending copious amounts of money on the latest trendy outfits to only wear once for the sake of validating myself.

Nope, not even close. Nowadays, what lights me up on the daily is working out first thing in the morning. Donating to animal rescue organizations. Working hard, but also working smarter.Walking my dog. Spending time with my loved ones making memories. Only saying yes to things I can truly get behind and want to do. Sleeping 8 hours a night. Curling up on the couch with a good book on my Kindle. Ordering my favorite iced matcha boba latte. Immersing myself in a random forest and/or with my feet in the ocean. Spending an obnoxious amount of time trying out new beauty rituals.

What I’ve learned in my relatively short time here on Earth is this: living your life in full alignment with who you are as a good human with integrity…honoring what you truly resonate with…what truly lights you up at core…that’s happiness. And I’ve come to realize that living a low-key, calm lifestyle with spurts of adventure and fuckery thrown in the mix to keep it spicy is precisely what does it for me.

xo, alix

When You’re Feeling Uninspired Do This

 

I’m uninspired AF right now. 

I have been for a few months, off and on. Is it common? Kinda. In my case, I suspect because I’ve been cooped up in the San Fernando Valley in the dead of summer (“Mordor,” as I affectionately call it this time of year) with few people to see and few places to go. So really just like every other human that’s living in a place affected by the current circumstances of the world and taking it seriously. 

Pair that with the inevitable change that life brings and getting used to new ways of being and doing things…full disclosure, it hasn’t been easy. I’ve been on the struggle bus. 

The GOOD thing is…I KNOW that this change is all for the better. In my case, this means being adamant on not doing shit I don’t want to do. No more booking scenes for the sake of booking scenes. No more going to set unless it’s for something EXTRA SUPER MEGA ULTRA DOPE or taking last-minute gigs and WAY more producing my own scenes for my fans. I mean, when you’ve been doing ANYTHING for 6 years and then it stops, whether you wanted it to or not, it’s still just a WEIRD feeling. 

Don’t worry, you and I both know that I’m a fucking boss and I’m really good at figuring shit out and making shit happen (from an aligned place of course) 😉 I just feel weird at the moment. Untethered. It’s not bad. Just different. 

 

ANYWAYS. 

 

This is the shit that has helped me get RE-INSPIRED. Tried-and-true methods by your very own alchemist. Teehee. Here ya go:

 

  1. Just fucking do it. If you’ve got a paper to write; a song to compose; a painting to paint….just jump right in. Sit in front of your computer / easel / wherever your “office” is and start writing. Put that first note down. Paint that first flower. There’s something about committing to doing whatever it is you need to do and just starting. It’s like a domino effect. All it takes is that first, second, third step and then it just starts to FLOW. 
  2. Change your environment. Whenever I’m feeling like a lump of mashed potatoes with no brain, I get outside and take a walk, run an errand…something that will switch up the pace of my environment temporarily. It’s an instant refresh. 
  3. Unplug. If you’re not able to even sit still, put a timer on and do something mindless for an hour. Play video games. Watch a TV show. Read. Listen to a podcast and clean. Watch the WAP music video and dance your heart out. Just immerse your brain with stuff so you’re not thinking endlessly about how uninspired you are. AND PUT YOUR PHONE AWAY DURING ALL OF THIS. NO EXCUSES. When the time’s up, get back to work. Sometimes you just need to give your mind a micro-vacation before it can create the work you want.  
  4. Time yourself. Set a timer (I’m a HUGE fan of timers, can you tell?!) for an hour. Sit down and do whatever it is you need to do for an hour. No matter how slow you’re going or how hard it gets, just commit to doing it for an hour and don’t stop till the timer’s up. Even if you make a pile of steaming hot garbage within that hour, it can always be revamped and refined and set aside for another project. Or it could be the beginning of a fucking masterpiece. Some of my favorite scenes I’ve filmed over the years were made in an hour from a cell phone on the fly. YOU NEVER FUCKING KNOW. 

 

Did I miss anything?! LMK. 

 

You got this. 

 

xo, alix